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Goodness I want so bad what is right. Why can't i get things right in my head? Why can't i just forgive and forget? I can't do it. It has to be. I can't go on feeling like this.

hello

Hello again people I at school again. I guess i kinda doing a lil better but i still have some problems. Well just wanted to give yall the heads up.

Thanks.

So here I am at school blogging. I just can't seem to think straight. I am having some problems that some of you will most likely figure out if you are around me enough. Its not really gonna be that hard to figure out at all actually. I mean if you know me at all its plain and simple. But please pray for me. I really need it at the moment. I don't have any idea what to do next. Do i need to just give up and just go with the flow and be how i used to be or try to fix the problem and do what i know could to fix it. This is really hard. Someone i care about may never talk to me again. The thought of it stinks like some thing crazy. This is just my luck. Or maybe this is just my life. Well please keep me in your prayers.

Thanks.
Michael

Title:No Idea At Times...

Some times i wonder why in the world did God just have to give us free will. I absolutely hate it like something crazy. Adam and Eve just had to be deceived into eating of the tree of good and evil and ruining all our lives. The stinking jerks. Did you know that there would be no problems if they hadn't been deceived and ate of the tree of good and evil. That's all it was a stinking stupid tree. They only had one rule and they just had to break it. Man sometimes i wish i could just go back and tell them whats up. I wish i could warn them of everything that has happened now because of that simple mistake that they just had to make. You know what I'm talking bout to. There are millions on top of millions of problems with this world that is the affect of that cause that they just had to bring about. Like how my school has been on the news from being the worse school in the state and how we've had about 435 arrest because of fights last year and already about 80 this year. And oh my goodness don't even get me started about politics. I am finally coming to the age where i can vote. But I'm not sure i even want to. I mean look at all the people that are running. On one side they're trying to make it legal for gays to get married and on the other side raising taxes, going to war, killing ourselves, gas prices and so on and so forth. I haven't any idea which is which but tell something, does it really matter? People are getting killed everyday just because of Adam and Eve and wanting to know pretty much what sin is. Well guess what people here it is. Its every where you go. I wish they could be here know just to see what their affect is. I hate Sin with a stinking passion. ITS WHAT KEEPS PEOPLE FROM HEAVEN AND I HATE IT. Some people think they know and they really don't.THEY DON'T HAVE A STINKING CLUE WHATS UP AND WHATS DOWN. These people need to pray. I work with and go to school with people that care more about getting smarter about a world that is probably going to come to an abrupt end than learning about the Lord. Now isn't that crazy. I think id rather go to heaven what about you. I mean i don't have nothing against a good education but that's not whats gonna get me to heaven. Did you know that humans are the only thing on earth that doesn't do what there supposed to do. We're the top of food chain and really most don't do whats right. Tell me why that is. I wish that the Lord would just take over and take away free will. People i don't think don't deserve it. People aren't smart enough for it anyways. I really do wish that there was only one way to go and that was to heaven. I really do hate sin. Well i guess Ive said enough. I guess ill go ahead and apologize. I really hope i didn't affend anybody by this or if i did i hope its the kind that will help more than harm. Maybe i just should just keep my thoughts with in. Well i sorry anyways. luv ya.

My Life...

Why does life have to be so complicated. Sometimes i wish somebody could just take over the rest of my life or at least just get me somewhere promising. As usual its evident i cant do it on my own. I know i am probably making things more complicated than they have to be. I just cant figure out anything. I really just want to throw in the towel. I really want to just give up. But than again i don't. I want to just keep on trying. Oh goodness. I guess this is just what keeps going through my head everyday i live.

ALL MUSCLE NO PLAY!!!

Hey yall its me again and back in action. Well for those who didn't know I've kinda started working out again like crazy. I want to get really strong this time. I think I've already just about got back to where i had left off. Ive already started losing fat too. Ive went from 172 lbs to what i just weighted myself today at 167 lbs. I actually want to gain all that weight back in muscle. I am actually in mid work out right now. I am resting at the moment. I just did 50 push ups. I haven't done that since my best friend past away. I know i can do this. I am already seeing definition. I don't guess i was that out of weight to begin with but i want to be so in shape its crazy. Well Ive actually started thinking about arm wrestling again. I kinda want to set the bar a lil high. Ive been thinking bout trying to go against Bro. Steve. Ive heard that hes been working out too. I heard hes benching 21o. Isn't that pretty cool. I want to put it to the test though. I know there is a chance that I well lose but i also remember i was thinking the same think when i went up against Bro. Galen. up at camp. Guess what, that was two years ago and i beat him. It was hard though. But i imagine I'm stronger or getting stronger now and i want to come back with a bang. Well if its alright that is i would like to try against Bro. Steve but only if he wants too. Well i guess that's enough for now. See ya ll peeps later. Bye.

My last first day of school.

well being a senior is just fantastico, terririco, great muy bien. I got to school today and felt as if i was glowing.it was just awesome. well i this is gonna be my last post for safety puposes and this blog. At least for a while any ways. I think its best if i give it a break. well until next time cya later

hi hi.

I'm back.

so here i am again back in TN. kinda stinks in some ways cuz i was enjoying my self greatly up there. well i back. So talks to u's later.

SOB SOB SOB

Grr i am craving Kasey's hot wings right now.

well

hello how are yall today. I hope everybody is having a good day today. I am really shocked on where I am at the moment. I am really mixed up in emotions. I really don't know what to think. It is really weird. I have these questions that just keeps reoccurring in my head. It really stinks because i really don't want to know the answer. that is if i know what the awnser is. I just cannot stop thinking about everything between me and bekka. it is really weird. i mean not only that i am typing without looking at the puter or the keyboard right know but of what i have been thinking. I really do hate every thing that is going on up in my noggin.gurr at everything. Well i guess i gonna stop now. cyas later.

Just to see what happens...

Though, not really a game, just a interesting thing to do...enjoy.Memories:

1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that we had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot; anything you remember!

2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty funny to see the responses.If you leave a memory about me, I'll come to your blog and leave one about you. Have Fun!

Please Pray...

I hope everybody has had a good day today. For me my day wasn't so great. I had a really rough day at work today unfortunatly. I had to pray really hard to day during my shift because well you see I was kind of on the edge of going balistic. I mean if I had of stayed any longer at work tonight i would have probably ended up in juvenile. I was actually about to fight this guy. I am so tired of turning the other cheek. I dont know what is up with this guy. I am so nice to him. The guy apparently abosolutely hates my guts. He thinks hes perfect I guess. He's so good about pointing out every little mistake everybody does. You know I think I wouldnt be so mad at him if he would just leave me alone sometimes. I know I am obviously not doing very much wrong because i just got a raise. So i really wish he would just leave me alone and let me do my job. I am so tired of doing everything. And you know here lately i have pretty much been doing everything just hopeing he would have a better attitude towards me. But no the dude still hates me. I wish I could just say I am sorry to the guy but Ive kinda done tried that. Well i am glad i made it out of there today. I guess i am just tired of running the whole sonic kitchen by myself. I am tired of being hated. I am tired of being told i cant do anything right. I am tired of trying to please somebody who no matter what i do for will still hate me. I am always doing stuff for him but when i ask for his help he'll just say no or say something that just makes me want to cry or just go insane over. I am so tired of the guy. I wish he would just get saved or somfin. Well please pray for me. I am just so tired of feeling like crap. Well i guess I'm gonna get off here. I suppose i have depressed yall enough. But please pray for me. And don't just pray for me pray for this other guy too. He really needs the Lord. Well I love yall. Buh bye.

Hello again...

Hello people guess what I did today. I had the first banana split I have ever had in my entire life. When I told the girls at Sonic today they thought I was crazy. When they found I was not messing around with them they insisted that I try one out. Well guess what?? I love the things. I can now say I think Banana Splits taste great. Well if you haven't ever had a banana split I think you should try one. So tonight at work was pretty fun I guess. Seems that is unusual LOL. It seems to have flown by. Well I wish more of the nights were like this. Well I guess ill tell yall somfin else that is pretty weird. I got up yesterday morning at 4:30am. Isn't that weird. Well its not somfin I really want to do a lot. But I did have a reason for doing it. I had to go to my grandfathers in Mt. Juliet. It was really cool. The sun was just coming up and everything. The traffic lights were blinking on and off. The roads were pretty much empty except for a couple of other peeps that i guess had places to be. It was super fun though. It was the first time I was up that early and driving. And mind you I was even all alone. Pretty cool and a bit creepy stuff. I loved it though. Maybe I will do it again sometime. I suppose I will try and find somewhere to go first I don't want to get up that early for nothing. Okay i think I am done with this blog. so see you guys later. Hope yall have had a good day and gonna have more to come. Well I guess i gonna go now . Buh bye.

Just another blog...

Today has been a really good day. I got off work early then I went with my mom to Olive Garden which was really great by itself. Well then what to talk about. Hmm..Well I'd like to thank the Lord for just how good he is. I serve an amazing God. God is just so great I wonder why people or what makes people think it is so hard to be a christian. It is not that hard to serve God. I think it is quite easy actually. All you have to do is pray and read your bible and go to church regularly. God gives us everything we need to survive. He helps us go from day to day. He never puts any kind of a burden on us that we can't handle. So I really don't get why it is so hard to serve God. He does so much for us and it seems some people don't even think about how much he does. It seems the least we can do his serve him and thank him for what he does for us. I think if we was to try to pay the Lord back we would be in extreme debt. So why can't we do as much as we can to serve him? I think if we give a hundred and ten percent to worldly events we should give the Lord at least a hundred and twenty percent. Another thing I really don't get is why people question so much what is wrong and what is right. It seems to me that if you can even question the thought in your head it is most likely wrong. Or maybe you just say something like I don't do this so and so to show off I just feel kind of naked without it. Or maybe you say something like I don't wear this for pride I just wear it you know i guess just to wear it. And then maybe sometimes you get into the right crowd and you start trying to show off. Well I guess you just should not do something if you feel it could be wrong. You should immediately dismiss the thought completely. Well I guess i just think if maybe jewelry or makeup is the problem I think it should be easy just to not wear it. I really don't think there should be any questions asked. Maybe i guess some people want to wait until they can really feel guilty for what they have done.
But I guess humans are the only thing on earth that can make there own decisions. Everything else on earth does exactly what it is supposed to do without questioning well maybe if I do so and so for this reason or something like that. But I guess that saying is true about the horse. You know the one where it talks about giving the horse water but you cant make it drink. God is always giving us stuff that we need spiritually. Why is it so hard for some people just to take it. Well Sorry for this blog I just thinking out loud I guess. Well ill talk to y'all peoples later.Luv ya.

Hey

Hey its me again. Well.. Como' estas.I hope everybody is having a good day today. I went to church today. Today was my second day driving to church. I really enjoy driving. I think I get a little better every day. We watched that video of Damon singing again on the wall at church. Goodness it sure is depressing. I sure did love him. He really was my best friend. I could tell or ask him anything. He was just so perfect for me. Anytime I had a problem and brought it to his attention he would always do his best to find the anwser. It doesn't seem I really can talk to or be able to get a point across or i just cannot seem to explain myself as well as others. I have found I am not as wise as i thought i was and seemed to be in the old days when Damon was around. Now it seems all I really ever get is corrections. Well I guess that's a good thing I mean without corrections no one could ever better themselves. But still it seems my self confidence has dropped dramatically. Well I don't guess it really matters though i mean I dont really know why I tell yall all of this. I don't really want yall to know any of this to tell u the truth. I guess I'm just crazy like that well sorry for taking up some of your time. Maybe next time i will think of something a little more interesting. I have been thinking about doing research on why wearing make up and jewelry is wrong.Well see yalls people later. Bye.

Isn't that just simply astonishing

You Are a Great Listener

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You Have a Choleric Temperament

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Do yall ever wonder why you did something after you did it..

Well have ya. I don't know what in the world is wrong with me. Well I decided today since I was able to and was already close by, I would go see an old best friend. I thought I could make it you know alone. Well I don't know what is wrong with me. I ended up balling my eyes out all alone at the cemetery. I cant believe it. I don't guess I'll ever be able to get over it. I really miss my old friend so very much. I really wish me and him could cut some more yards and work on my truck some more. Well I sorry for this blog everybody I just wanted to get this off my chest. Well I hope every body is having a good day. Cyalls later.

One last long depressing blog...

Sorry i haven't been the most optimistic lately. Ive been having some problems. But i refuse to let them bring me down. I know now that apparently Ill never be able to please everybody and now is the time I think I m just gonna give up. I'm just gonna be the best i can be. I guess that's probably the best i can do. Well I'm about tired of acting all depressed when i get on here so from now on i am gonna do my best to be more happy. Being depressed does nothing buy make u feel sorry for yourself. I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself. Theres really no point in it. I think its time for another change. I hope this change will actually be a good one. I think I'm gonna try and talk less or at least give my opinion less. I've found that I will probably be less likely to stick my foot in my mouth if i just keep it closed. Plus it seems that i am to dumb to prove a point. So there is no point in trying to prove one if i cant. And most of the time i even know nothing about what i am trying to talk about. I really don't know what my problem is. I'd like to say I'm special ed or something but i obviously cant really prove that either. Or maybe well i don't know.I just really want to change. I am tired of being and acting dumb all of the time and also trying to please everyone. I think its time to quit. I am tired of all of this. It is definitely time for a change. I am going to try to do less talkin and more observing . I hope i am really able to carry this out. I know people are probably going to doubt me but I am still going to try. well here goes another blog well sorry for depressing yall again. Ill try to do better next time. So see yall later.

I sorry

Hello again everybody. Sorry i have not been bloggin that much. Well Im not really having the best day today. I have read some things that just pretty much made me feel like junk. I guess everyone makes mistakes though. Well I guess I wouldnt make so many mistakes if i would just keep my sorry mouth shut. I seems I am always getting myself in to trouble when i talk or even just try to help someone out. Well i would like for anyone who reads my blog to pray for me cuz i having a rough time.

Hello

Hello again people. Sorry I haven't been on here lately. I guess I just been busy doing other stuff like playing with my new myspace that Bekka and I made for myself. Also Ive been fixing up and playing with my facebook. I guess all that stuff is very distracting. But tis very fun. I so so glad I finally got a myspace though. Will wish me luck on trying on getting more friends. Ive been trying to find all the people I know on there and its been difficult at times i guess. Well I wish people would add me. Well see all yall later. Bye.

IM lovin it

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee,, I'm a Senior now. Yes yes yes. I lovin this. yes yes yes. I passed. Yes. And I got our internet back yes yes yes. Weeeee.

I'm back...

Well here i am again in blog world. Well I guess its good to be back. Well let me rephrase that great to be back. I guess i kinda shocked will not really by certain well "blogs". I guess I was kinda of expecting the person to break out of his or her shell sooner or later. Well I cant wait to really get back in the habit of blogging again. Ive been considering buying the Internet back at our house. I cant wait to go crazy like i used to be on here.

Surprise!!!

Hey everybody guess where i am. Ill give u a hint. Theres three of them. Okay u guessed it it is Brad and Rachel. Pretty cool stuff. Yup. Its awesome opossum. LOL . I probably spelled that wrong.LOL. well just trying to be crazy. well this is pretty cool.Well i gonna get off here so i can look at my hott girlfriends blog again.LOL. Cya.

Hey...

Hey I'm still waiting for yall to comment on Bekkas Blog. Yall know you want to. Well what to talk about. I had like a ten dollar buger the other day. It was fantastico too. I loved it. It had everything on it i think. Well I dont know but i might have another today.LOL. I wish I could take Bekka somewhere expensive like that. I mean I dont think a ten dollar burger is anything special but you know just somewhere expensive. Well i guess ill leave yall alone.

MY MY MY...

Hey yall. Well Kasey has left me now. I guess I've been more than she can take. I don't really even know how to feel. I feel sad cuz she has left me. I also am happy cuz she is finnaly where she as always wanted to be from the start. Well I really want to get on here and depressed you guys so i guess ill talk bout somfin different.
Why hasn't anybody commented on my girlfriends blog!!! She finnaly said somfin bout me again and nobody has anything to say. I shouldnt even have to get on to yall. Yall know this is like the coolest girl ever.
IT does stink that I can't see my girlfriend on a regular basis. I miss her so much its crazy.I finnaly got my licence and still have no one to really take on a date. No one but my momma anyways. I would really like to take the hottest and bestest all around girlfriend to a really expensive resturant like Olive garden or Long Horn or some really cool place that sends me out broke and still feeling good cuz i know my money was well spent. Well i guess i'll have to wait. See yall later.
Love you too Bekka.

Awesome opossum

Well here I go again posting. I hope everybody had a good day today. My day was pretty cool. My day at work was pretty interesting. I guess I finally got the truck that once belonged to Damon. Pretty cool. I think in the next couple of weeks I am gonna go an attempt to get my drivers licence. Well that's pretty much all i have to say at the moment so I guess Ill leave yall alone. So cyalls later.

Hello

Ok sowwy for my depressing blog i typed here while back. Well here I am back on the net checking out everything. So far I've been on Bekka's blog and saw her smoking hott pics of her and the cute baby pics. Well hope all of yall havin a good day. Cyalls later.

Hello yalls

Hello again everybody. Hope everybody has had a good day today. I took my mom out on a date to O'Charleys. Then we went to look at some Ipods. I am thinking about getting one. But I am having some problems. I don't really have access to the net. So thats kinda a major prob. Well I am actually reading a book. I think its Bekkahs fault. Well I've been reading a lot. The other night I even read to her over the phone lol. How cool is that? My girlfriend is just so totally awesome. Well the coolest ant ever is back home. I think its about time. There for a while i thought she forgot about me. Well shes back.Well I have to say Ive had a really good Break. This will be the first break where i actually had a girl friend. Well I don't guess I've really ever had a girlfriend besides the ones i had at youth camp and i don't really know if i can actually call those girls my girlfriends. So I guess Bekkah well be the only one who i can actually call my girlfriend. I am glad I've been spoiled with her though. I really don't think i deserve her. I cant believe that she is actually my girlfriend. I think she deserves a lot more than me. I am probably not the only one who thinks like that either. But i do agree with them. I think she deserves somebody that might actually make a difference in the world. Unfortunately I believe I am only a stepping stone in this beautiful girls life. I know I probably will be depressed when she does firgure out that I am far from perfect and leaves me for Mr. Wonderful but at least she'll be able to be happy. I really just want her to be happy. Well I guess I'll get off here. Cyas.