One last long depressing blog...

Sorry i haven't been the most optimistic lately. Ive been having some problems. But i refuse to let them bring me down. I know now that apparently Ill never be able to please everybody and now is the time I think I m just gonna give up. I'm just gonna be the best i can be. I guess that's probably the best i can do. Well I'm about tired of acting all depressed when i get on here so from now on i am gonna do my best to be more happy. Being depressed does nothing buy make u feel sorry for yourself. I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself. Theres really no point in it. I think its time for another change. I hope this change will actually be a good one. I think I'm gonna try and talk less or at least give my opinion less. I've found that I will probably be less likely to stick my foot in my mouth if i just keep it closed. Plus it seems that i am to dumb to prove a point. So there is no point in trying to prove one if i cant. And most of the time i even know nothing about what i am trying to talk about. I really don't know what my problem is. I'd like to say I'm special ed or something but i obviously cant really prove that either. Or maybe well i don't know.I just really want to change. I am tired of being and acting dumb all of the time and also trying to please everyone. I think its time to quit. I am tired of all of this. It is definitely time for a change. I am going to try to do less talkin and more observing . I hope i am really able to carry this out. I know people are probably going to doubt me but I am still going to try. well here goes another blog well sorry for depressing yall again. Ill try to do better next time. So see yall later.